I afraid to love a guy

p/s: don't miscontrue me. haha.. i'm straight. 0_o!

For this moment in time,

I afraid to love a guy

As I know if love just only a feeling of pleasure

I afraid to love a guy

As I know if I may get hurt someday

I afraid to love a guy

As I know if we both may lose trust one day

I afraid to fall in love with a guy

As I know if this relationship may not last longer

I am not trying to weaken my present comparing of past

Where I built my own wall in a moment

I don’t know how to love a guy

As I was putting barrier since the first

For this moment in time

I afraid to love a guy

As I know if he may take some piece of me

I afraid to love a guy

As I think is he right for me?

I afraid to love a guy

As I know if this love just a waste

I afraid to fall in love with a guy

As I scare if my love for him exceed love to God and Prophet

Afraid to love

My heart is not prepare yet

What is love, wondering how is the feeling

I tried to date

But my heart does not allow it even from the start

I am too ashamed to God as He love me much

However soon,

He will show how love is when the moment is true

He will deliver the right guy who will knock my heart

And when both my heart and mind get ready, I go for it

That is

A beautiful marriage….

For this moment in time,

I afraid to fall in love with a guy

By: Haniey Izhar

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